Welcome to my nightmare

Fear. What is fear?  Has something happened to you that scarred you for the rest of your life?  I think my biggest fear is losing my mom, some of my friends lost my mom at a young age and I notice them struggle in life.  I don't know what I would do without my mom in my life.   I have never had this dream more than once, but once was enough for me.  I can't ever say I take my mom for granted because I love and respect her.  I once had this dream where I was eight years old. In this dream I was the last one to know that my mom had cancer.  I got home from school and it was weird because my mom didn't pick me up, but it was my dad who chose to pick me up.  I get home to an empty house which was weird because my mom was always there when I got home.  Later my dad tells me that we were going somewhere.  We ended up going to the hospital and we saw my brother there as well. We go inside this room where they had my mom laying on a bed and I ran to her because I was so happy to see her.  She was having trouble keeping her eyes open and she tells me that I need to listen to my dad and brother and do whatever they tell me to do.  She starts telling me do be a good girl and get into a good college when I'm older.  I start asking her questions but she couldn't just answer me until my dad pulls me away. He told me that my mom wasn't going to be with us anymore. I start to cry and I ran to my mom.  That's when I woke up and I ran to go see if my mom was okay and she was.  I know we all die at one point, but I don't want to go through the process where I witness my mom pass away.